Belief and Guilt about Success

I’m struggling to believe that I am worthy of success. I have had a hard time in the past receiving accolades, doing well academically, buying a house etc.

For example, I didn’t want to celebrate or have a party when I received my masters degree. I didn’t want to share that I bought my first house and had an incredible amount of mind drama when I bought my second larger home. I felt Sooo guilty for this.

This still shows up in my life but now as I am building my business this is coming up again. I don’t believe that I am worthy of a thriving business. I feel guilty for trying to achieve more – owning my own business, make well into the 6 figures. I’m Puerto Rican and no one in my family owns a home or a business and I feel guilty for mine.

This belief is not going to serve me but it keeps coming up. I have no mentors that I can talk to about this success guilt.