I wanted to show you that I found one of my painful beliefs that has led me to struggle with my weight. I have a few more, but I just wanted to show you this so you could tell me if I’m on the right track here…

Here is my model that explains how the belief started as a seed and then I basically watered the hell out of it.

C: Mom tells me when I was 10 years old at the nutritionist office that I would never ever be a skinny woman.
T: (thoughts that I am keeping alive today) She was right. I am destined to be this way forever. She nailed it. I’m just a big woman and that is forever my identity. I was meant to be this big.
F: sad, angry, jealous of other women.
A: keeps me eating constantly
R: I never grow up out of emotional childhood and continue to live out my false belief.

OK- now for the newest model on this…….

C: Mom tells me when I was 10 years old at the nutritionist office that I would never ever be a skinny woman.
T: She told me this because she thought she was preparing me for life. This came from a good place of love, but I used it as a painful truth for my destiny. My mom loved me and was doing the best she could by taking me to a nutritionist.
F: forgiving of her and myself. And loving.
A: Keeps writing
R: Learning more things about myself, and pinpointing all of my painful beliefs.

I can remember vividly when she told me this. My little 10 year old self welled up with tears and was devastated. It was a horrible day and she felt bad, but now as an adult I can clearly see that she was just trying to do her best to help me through this.

Man this is such powerful stuff, I am in complete awe.
I may send you a few more if you don’t mind!
If I’m off track, just let me know!! I’m think I’m on to something her

Debbie