thank you so much for your reply….
SO, what I want is to feel great in my marriage and have a solid and fun relationship with my husband.
I understand that I can feel this way regardless of what he does, but have found that when I have moved forward in the past with these new thoughts, the dishonestly surfaces and I don’t feel good about the lies (because of my thinking). I don’t want to find a way to feel ok about the dishonesty because it literally physically doesn’t feel good. I own that I am choosing not to like it. This is where I get stuck….keep trying on new thoughts? He’s going to behave however he wants despite my kind requests. What’s the next “rub”!?