I want to ask myself “How is it true that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be right now?” in order to stop feeling “behind” and like I should be more “ahead” by now and have things figured out, but I’m drawing a blank. It doesn’t feel true to me when I think that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be, because here is where I am. That just feels like circular reasoning. But

C: Journal prompt: “How is it true that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be right now?”
T: It’s not, I should be further along by now
F: Shame
A: Avoid doing SCS work, indulge in confusion and familiarity
R: Not figure out reasons why I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be right now.

I feel kind of stuck on this concept and perhaps I should just drop it for now and focus on something else in the meantime but I’m also a little worried that I’m inclined to focus on something else since it would be more comfortable and bring up less cognitive dissonance to NOT attempt to be radically self-accepting and loving when my tendency to beat up myself for not being perfect or better by now is so strong?

Do you think it would be appropriate to work on answering questions like “How can I practice radical self love today?” and “What am I proud of?” instead? Any other guidance would be appreciated too!