binge eating models


I am so stuck in a binge eating cycle. I’m working through some of the models as you have suggested, and I’m finding that when I feel bad about my body, I want to eat.

C: areas of body feel objectively larger and squishier than previously
T: I must lose weight immediately
F: Panic
A: Try to plan diet
R: Discouraged (leads to another thought – “No diet ever works for me”, see below)

C: New diet
T: No diet ever works for me
F: Hopeless
A: Eat
R: Gain weight

The weight gain makes me hate my body, which gives me a whole other model:

C: areas of body feel objectively larger and squishier than previously
T: I am disgusting
F: Hopeless
A: Eat
R: Gain weight

As is evident, this is a miserable cycle to be in. All roads point to EAT and GAIN WEIGHT.

There are other reasons why I overeat, too, but this is the biggest one. Hating my body makes me want to eat, so I can see that it’s not a useful thought pattern.

C: areas of body feel objectively larger and squishier than previously
T: my miracle of a body is working EXACTLY how nature designed it to work
F: confident
A: stick to protocol
R: lose weight

C: New protocol
T: I am fully capable of making massive changes
F: Excited
A: Stick to protocol
R: Lose weight

I think I feel better about these thoughts. I am going to write them and post them around my house. I think I just dug myself out of a spiral.