Birthday Month

My family members all have birthdays in the same month (mine is first, my kids in the middle and my spouse last). I have a lot of mind chatter about me getting the short end of the stick. I don’t feel special because my birthday is first and the focus is on the kids and then my spouse’s is the final one so is a big blow-out. Then I have more mind chatter. I have thoughts regarding how ridiculous my thoughts are and how I am playing victim etc. How can I clean up these thoughts so I can enjoy and feel special on my birthday without comparing my birthday festivities to my spouse and feeling slighted? It’s a problem for me and I know I’m not showing up as my best self through it all. Thanks