C there is soft tissue on the side of my hip when I am sitting down
T omg my hips and thighs are so disgusting
F shame
A think thoughts of self-loathing, try to cover it up, ruminate on how I can possibly fix my fat body and lose weight
R I just carry on, disliking myself, feeling like there is something wrong with my body.

I let myself feel the shame. I spoke to it. I described it. It’s like a dark vortex pulling me inside, and is symbolized by a man in a cape with a mask.

Here’s the model I WANT to have:

C there is soft tissue on the side of my hip when I am sitting down
T I have so much love and gratitude for my body
F whole
A Get all snuggly on my couch and pay attention to what I’m doing
R be in the present moment loving my aligned authentic life

But it’s too far of a stretch.

Instead, I can come up with this:

C there is soft tissue on the side of my hip when I am sitting down
T I have legs and hips
F pretty neutral
A continue on reading
R I enjoy the rest of my evening without emotional drama

My thoughts are that I will practice the new model, whenever I get the omg you’re so disgusting thought, I’ll see if I can try on the “I have legs and hips” thought instead. Any other suggestions?