Broken foot work


Thought download

I hate this. I’m sick of not being able to walk. This shouldn’t be. It’s not fair that I’m pregnant and not walking. I don’t want to have to rely on her. I want to run. I want to clean my room. I want to bend over. I want to go to the gym. I’m tired of this. I want out. Hate feeling this way. He doesn’t understand. I don’t want to complain. She does everything why am I complaining. Why doesn’t my mom offer to help. Why doesn’t anyone think this is a big deal. This isn’t fair. I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. The doctor needs to fix this right away. Im having a baby in 3 months, what if it isn’t fixed in time. How can I give birth with a broken foot. How can I take care of a newborn on crutches. This should not be happening. I’m bored. I don’t know what to do with the kids all day. I hate the way my house looks. I can’t feel good about this situation. I want to feel better.

Do I allow my feelings or change my thoughts?

These thoughts cause me to feel agitated, restless, anger, short fused, self pity.

Self pity isn’t useful so I want to stop thinking thoughts that cause me that feeling.

C: pain in right foot
T: this isn’t fair
F: self pity
A: stew and over eat, snap at my kids, complain, feel sorry for myself, sleep
R: I’m not being fair to myself

C: pain in right foot
T: no big deal, I totally got this, my foot will heal, this is fun
F: confident
A: show up, take care of the kids, rest my foot, make jokes
R: It’s fun and I get what I need to done

Any advice on what other work I should be doing? I have a lot of negative thoughts and feelings. I have felt myself slip into depression when I can’t control my thoughts and I want to get a handle on it and not let my thoughts run wild. My brain is telling me we’re going to die- but really I’m fine.

I have a roof over my head, electronics for my kids, a kitchen full of food, a husband who works and takes care of the kids.A healthy baby in my tummy. A MIL who loves to help. I’m okay. Really. Nothing to freak out about. Let’s take it day by day. Tomorrow we will try again. I’m 7 months pregnant with a broken foot- nothing more bad ass than that! I’m going to kill it tomorrow- have the greatest day with my kids and not feel bad for a second about all the shows we are going to watch cuddled up in bed. These are the best days of my life.

Take that Neutral Curcumstance that I still believe is negative!