I want to buffer my feelings of inadequacy and low self esteem at work by reaching out to an ex who lives just 5 minutes away from me. I’ve been carrying these negative thoughts for 2 months already with the surge of work. I’ve been trying my best to face the difficulties at work and not fall back into unhealthy habits, but I’m really at the edge of my seat. I really just want that escape and that release. But I know I will just hate myself if I do that, because he is not good for me. How do I get unstuck from this?