Buffering because no baby

I feel like I just can’t deal with the fact that I don’t get pregnant every month.

I made two models: a model where I get pregnant and I am happy with the news and another model where I do not get pregnant and accept it because I can continue to lose weight and workout every day…but all that is theoretical.

In reality, when I am not pregnant and I know it even before my period, I’m buffering, buffering and buffering before and during my period.

Thank you so much.