Buffering or Relaxing?

I am struggling with deciding whether my behavior is buffering or just much needed “happy” time. I think it is buffering because I want to be spending my not-at-work time learning how to grow my audience and growing my life coaching business, but some days I find myself singing instead. And it makes me happy, which I value because I’ve spent a lot of my life depressed so if I find myself singing, sometimes I think it’s a good thing BUT I also feel like I’m avoiding the work I think I need to do. So when I think of it as buffering, I actually turn something that feels happy into something to beat myself up about, but at the same time I wonder if it’s just because I put too much pressure on myself to hurry up and build this business and singing and “taking a break” is actually okay.