Buffering with thought download

After one month of doing the daily homework, and a drastically reduced daily procrastination, I have now a lot of positive thoughts in the morning. So this morning it was all positive thought, and being proud of myself, and questions on what to do next. And then I thought I was indulging in all these progress. And I found the one thought that I was pushing behind the others and that is causing me shame. Not surprisingly, the intentional model about it is difficult and non believable for me. I guess I am not ready yet for the change? I have to let the thought and the shame go completely out of the closet?