Buffering with wine

I’m over drinking Wine and cannot identity the reason. I’m sheltering in place and fortunate to be working remotely from home so I have no financial worries. My relationship with my family Is strong, everyone is healthy. I do have an elderly mother in a senior living facility and I worry about her. I’m very disappointed in myself and need help figuring this out. I feel remorse and I’m ashamed of myself. I feel like I’m intentionally choosing to do this. It’s a beautiful morning and I’m wasting it feeling hungover. I would appreciate some advice, thank you.