I have always had a bad habit of kleptomania (taking small items of little value).
I know it is wrong, but in the moment I don’t think about it, but I want to stop because of the fear of social consequences of my actions (being marked as an untrusty person, begin socially cast out)
The stupid thing is that I can more than easily afford to buy the things myself.
I have a hard time describing the feelings and thoughts, but if I should put thoughts to why I do it, the thought could be “I don’t feel rich” or “no one will know” or “I think the item looks pretty” or “the item is useful”.
I am kind of a hoarder (which I’m working on by cleaning up my emotional life and the items that I process)
I probably hoard for the same reasons as I exercise kleptomania.
many thanks for all the good mind work in scs, it has already changed my life for the better within the past 3 days (listening to the podcast for 2 months, so I have been primed by Brooke).
most sincere regards!