By the end of 2018 I want to be able to think effortlessly, “I have the most amazing husband.” Great goal for me, that I feel is totally impossible and, which, has created all sorts of terrible, icky feelings inside of me. It’s been a challenging month. He’s been driving me crazy (“my thoughts” about him have been driving me crazy:)). But, I just figured it out. I just had the moment where the light bulb went on. I can think and feel that he is an amazing husband, and he can still bug me. Those thoughts and feelings and coexist. I DID NOT know that. My lower brain DID NOT know that. It’s taken some serious self-coaching this month (a lot of leaning into negative emotion and going through the river of misery) to get here. This one thought has taken a lot of work to get too, but it’s been totally worth it. I feel such relief and joy.
Thank you Brooke.