For many years now I think about some childhood trauma that happened to me. I tell myself it’s part of the reason I’m overweight and that’s why I’m not moving forward with permanent weight loss. I think my thought was I didn’t want to be attractive and gain attention. I think I’m also punishing myself for then doing some of those same things to another person. I logically say I was 10-12 years old and didn’t know better. I’m now in my 50’s and still think about it. Where do I start with dissecting this?