Coming from fear and anxiety

I loved reading your response to a scholar: when we come from fear and anxiety we give up our power. I am trying to apply that to myself in my work situation. I still am getting stuck.

C: I want consistent work hours
T: I deserve consistent work hours because I am a good worker
F: anxiety
A: act like a victim by complaining when I don’t get what I want, worry every month before the schedule gets posted, think my boss doesn’t like me, live in scarcity mode, never feel satisfied that I am working enough, feel guilty having days off, wasting time looking for other jobs instead of accepting the situation, telling myself I can’t live a good life if I don’t know my work schedule from month to month to make future plans or set up a consistent routine
R: I hate myself