Complete lack of motivation

Hi Brooke,

Back in October, you coached me in the VIP call about my job at a big bank. You taught me that I shouldn’t blame the bank for what I think and how I feel about them. So, as I wanted to stay in that job, for I while, I tried shifting my thinking to have more positive feelings.

The tools you teach us are wonderful, but they’re just tools and, like any tools, when you don’t handle them well, the results aren’t good. My problem is I’ve been trying to trick myself into liking a company that I’ve never liked from the start. But I was too embarrassed to admit that I had just taken that job to pay the rent in the first place. As you so often say, that’s already a beautiful thing and I agree. I’m grateful to be able to provide for myself. But I also hear you say that you love coaching so much that you will never retire. And it got me thinking: I don’t want to work at this bank for ever. I want to do something that gives me a hell of a good reason to get up in the morning.

Luckily, I’ve found that thing: my impossible goal for this year is to become certified as a school teacher to take up teaching in primary school the next school year. The thing is that the preparation for the certification lasts one year and during that time, I still want to feel motivated enough to do a great job at the company I work for. Not to mention I will need double dose of motivation to study math again, after my long workday, as it’s part of the teacher certification.

Right now, the only thing that motivates me is my yoga class every Monday night. Apart from that, I feel completely demotivated and I hate it, because I don’t want to let myself down or let my team down at the office, because they’re awesome. I really need to find useful thoughts that will make me feel focused and motivated.

As always, thanks for your help!