cookies on table

C: cookies on table
T: If I eat it with my meal it won’t be as bad for my insulin response
A: devour cookie until it’s gone
R: I have the negative consequence of not losing weight

So I don’t know how this thought makes me feel, I’m at a loss for words. I actually didn’t realize I had this particular thought until after the event. I know we will learn to be aware of the thought eventually in the moment. But, as I reflected I can’t discern what was going on for me to be impulsive and eat the cookie. I didn’t even have time to think about the urge and allowing it. I just indulged.