I am not happy with the state of the world. I strongly disagree with this vaccine, and the entire way covid has been treated. I understand that these thoughts create the feeling of furious in me, and when I think them, I don’t get results I like.

C: A novel piece of rna exists in the world
T: I strongly disagree with the entire way covid has been handled
F: Furious
A: I search instagram for information, watch videos, post on reddit, send memes to my friends, talk about how stupid I think this is with my friends and family, talk about it with my coworkers, question people who don’t agree that this is stupid to make them see that they are blind, think about moving into a commune or moving to Costa Rica, criticize people who post pro-vaccine stuff on instagram
R: I really don’t know the result here

This is what I want:

1. I don’t want to be be part of this experiment. I don’t trust the government, I don’t trust the “data”, and I believe that I have both the education and experience to warrant my opinion as valid.
2. I want to be able to continue to travel the world, and I want to be able to see my family (they live in another country). I want to keep my job. All of these things require my participation in this human experiment. I already have the vaccine bc I have basically been forced to.
3. I don’t want to spend any more time thinking about this, but I also can’t let it go. Rather, I don’t want to let it go, because it feels important that I don’t let a government that I hate absolutely ruin our society and create division over a virus that has such a low death rate. It’s POSSIBLE that I could let it go, but I don’t want to be injected with an unproven substance that I literally don’t need in order to keep my freedom to travel and work. I think that’s my main issue. Yeah, that’s my issue. I actually don’t care about anything else. I got very sick from the vaccine and I’m quite resentful of it, since I am a very healthy individual who is fit, eats no processed food, barely drinks, meditates, etc.

C: A piece of rna exists in the world
T: I don’t want to be injected with an unproven substance that I literally don’t need in order to keep my freedom to travel and work
F: Resentment and fury
A: I spend a lot of time on instagram reading about the vaccine, read all the research papers, post on reddit, covid, finding people who agree with me, consider moving, talk about this with my friends who agree with me, hate people in my head who are pro-vaccine / virus, get super mad about censorship, worry about the future and having to get more and more shots, worry about the fact that this idiotic virus is never going to go away
R: I need help with this one

Can you help me? I want to see what the results are that I am creating, and get some more clarity on what I need to do models on to get some peace around this. I know I have the option to stay angry, and that I have been choosing that. I think once I can see the results I’m creating, I might be more willing to let the anger go. I guess I’m also really mad about the booster shots. That’s what’s currently making me furious. I already have the vaccine, so I’m not concerned about it. But I don’t want to have to keep getting more and more of a stupid vaccine to live my life.

Please help.