Crazy how the model works

I have discovered a model below that my brain is creating –

C work
T I don’t work enough, I can always work more but I want to be with my family too
F guilty and conflicted
A avoid work
R don’t do the work as I’m not there, thus proving the thought

I find that I constantly plan vacations and time away with family, but I feel guilty being away from work and don’t enjoy the moment. Can you help me see through this please. Thanks for your help on this page.