Credit card info autopopulating


C Popup with my saved credit card info comes up
T I am so mad that they are stealing my information under the guise of caring for my wellbeing and convenience. (Aka everybody is lying to me).
F Hatred
A I snarl, I have an angry thought, it kind of disturbs my peace, I am closed off, I am resistant, I feel tired and angry and am untrusting
R I ruin my own wellbeing and convenience by lying to myself

But what am I lying to myself about? Is “they are stealing my information under the guise of caring for my wellbeing and convenience) a lie?

Okay, well I’m willingly giving them my information – they aren’t stealing it. So there’s that.
Okay, and I’m also believing on some level that something outside of me can give me wellbeing and convenience. I have certainly let something outside of me impact my thoughts and take AWAY my wellbeing and convenience.

C Popup with my saved credit card info comes up
T I have chosen to participate in this transaction
F Clear
A I complete the transaction with less mind chatter, I still feel disturbed, but less bothered, I move on more quickly
R I take responsibility for participating in these kinds of transactions, I leave space for the feeling of “conflicted” that comes up

Well, I think ultimately the turnaround is that “I am lying to everyone.” It’s true. I am still not living my authentic life, and I’m really mad about it. I still participate in a system that I dislike strongly, I still make money off it, I still give money to it. I know that organizations use the information we willingly give them for personal and financial gain, and I still give them my information willingly. I play a part in this, I’m not as mindful about it as I’d like to be, and I am out of integrity. I think this is why it makes me so mad.