Dare and models – crying in church

On the first Sunday of the month my church has Fast and Testimony meeting when members get up and walk to the stand in front of everyone and give their testimonies of something gospel related. The testimonies are supposed to the short and edifying to the congregation. For years, I couldn’t get up and bear my testimony without crying – like naked ugly crying. One of my goals this year is that I would get up every month and give my testimony regardless of the crying – I’d just do it – and be willing to cry and that’s okay. Well, today I got up and bore my testimony and didn’t cry. I did mist up just a little. But I did it! So excited!

Here’s my before model:
C: Crying when giving testimony
T: I can’t control my emotions enough to bear my testimony without crying.
F: helpless
A: Give testimony and blubber incoherently at the pulpit.
R: I continue to cry during testimony.

After model
C: Crying when giving testimony
T: It’s okay if I cry bearing my testimony.
F: relief
A: Get up and give testimony each month with less freakout happening in my brain.
R: Didn’t cry this time giving my testimony. YAY!

Thanks for everything you’ve taught me.