Day 4

I’m answering the question from day 4 about your feelings about yourself as a child. “Did you feel loving toward yourself?” “What did you believe about your lovability? I’m not sure of the answer to this question. How would that look and feel?
I had serious medical problems from birth on. Some obvious. As a result I learned to feel shame about my body very young. I tried to stay out of photos and in the background from a very young age.
But there was still a lot of love and laughter in my life. I remember being a happy child as long as I wasn’t the center of attention. Those moments I could forget I had something to hide.
Did I feel I was lovable? Did I love myself?
If I did, would I have wanted to hide myself?