Day 5 Model on Medium but maybe I need to spend more time in a TDL first?


OK so I decided to do my TDL on writing this morning. And thoughts came up about how I think writing needs to make me money. Yes, I’m a writer and yes, I would love it to make money but not in the sense that it has to be my entire income. But I can see my competitive side coming up around that so my unintentional thoughts really are money has to make me A LOT of money. I started on my models:

UM
C: writing
T: My writing has to make a lot of money.
F: stressed
A: check my Medium stats multiple times a day. Spend hours and hours, weeks and weeks trying to figure out the best topics to write about and that will make me money. Don’t actually write and publish anything at all. Don’t even write about what I love or what interests me. Buffer on food, TV, work, everything but writing and publishing.
R: I don’t make a lot of money with my writing.

IM
C: writing
T: My writing can be whatever it is.
F: inspired
A: write and publish articles I enjoy

Here’s where I get interrupted and wonder if I’m actually talking about the publishing platform Medium and not my writing. So I go to another page in my workbook with extra space and start again.

UM
C: the publishing platform Medium
T: Medium has to make me a lot of money.
F: stressed
A: check stats multiple times a day, spend time brainstorming ideas for articles that will generate more money and more readers, don’t actually write any articles especially on topics I actually enjoy, and I certainly don’t publish a lot of articles, buffer on anything instead of writing and publishing articles
R: I don’t actually make a lot of money on Medium.

IM
C: the publishing platform Medium
T: Medium can be a tool to help me become a better writer.
F: inspired
A: spend time writing and publishing articles I enjoy, interact with more writers on Medium, get constructive feedback from other writers and readers, implement the feedback, discover other writers I enjoy reading, learn more writing tips to help my articles stand out
R: My writing does get better.

OK so here is what came to me while doing this:

1. As you mentioned in a previous Q&A, I need to spend even more time on TDLs about my writing, not just on do I want to be a writer but everything about my writing to get out ALL the thoughts floating around about my writing.

2. In both UMs, I’m not seeing how my Rs go back to my Ts. What am I missing?

3. Stressed is definitely an indulgent emotion in these examples as they keep me spinning in confusion and inaction.

4. For all these years, I thought inspiration happened to me, but I can actually create that feeling of inspiration without waiting for my Muse to appear. He can be super finicky so it’s best not to wait on him all the time anyway. LOL

Thanks!