Daycare Job

I know there is no wrong decision, but how do you know when you should leave a situation? I know we choose to believe whatever we want about it.

I have been working at a daycare for five months, I feel I have worked at my highest level and delivered as much value as I can. I feel like I have tried to make the most of it.

When doing a thought download my thoughts are:

This isn’t right, children and staff should not be treated like this, I am not aligned or in agreement with the curriculum, I should suck it up, this is my job, these are human beings not “points” in a ratio, she’s(the Director) trying her best, I understand she is busy, it’s not that bad, it is convenient for my children’s school, maybe it’s me and my thoughts that are making this seems like it’s worse than it is, maybe my standards are just to high, maybe it’s me and I’m being dramatic, children should get to have more outdoor play and physical play, I don’t know if I want to do this, I don’t think I like this, did I screw this up? am I screwing this up? This isn’t the care I want for my kids, but maybe it’s me being crazy.

Unintentional Model:
C – Working at daycare
T – “Maybe it’s me who is making it seem worse than it is”
F – Stressed
A – Physically feel stressed, my stomach hurts, don’t decide to make a decision if I’m staying or leaving, I think about my thoughts about it, I think about my negative thoughts and then think of a positive instead, almost shame myself that I am thinking it’s not a good daycare, not trusting myself and my opinion of the care, I think “what’s wrong with me? Why can’t I be happy there?”, think “I’m going to ruin this.”
R – Still working at daycare

Any input on how to come to make a decision from a good place would be great. Thank you!