C. Mom on her deathbed says to sister “ you have been a disappointment and I wish you would give me an apology for how you ruined our family and my life”
T. My mother is a cruel manipulator
F disgust
A forgetting the nice closing days I had caring for her while visiting last week, forgetting the parts of her I love, storming and stewing with fulminating thoughts adding stress to an already quarantined house, blaming myself for this damaged relationship, hiding from my sister
R. I am not connecting with my mom on these last days of her life

SOS. Not much time to figure this out