Disappointing myself

Hi coach!

I have been recently doing models and thought downloads on how I think about my business and investments. I just became aware that I have a fear of disappointing myself – That I won’t follow through. I just made a big investment on my self-improvement, but I keep thinking “What if I don’t follow the program?” “What if I fail?” I have to try to answer these questions and have found that I can deal with the possible outcomes. What I don’t get is why I keep buffering with things I really want to do. I made this investment because I want the value I perceive. It doesn’t make sense to me that I have all this self-judgment and at the end I get stuck on that and end up disappointing myself again.

I don’t want this to happen again. I want to feel confident that I will get the results I sign up for but can’t figure out a thought that helps me create that emotion. Any advice?

Thank you!!