Do I belief that my boyfriend loves me?

I’m struggling with the R in this model:

C Boyfriend says I love you
T I wonder if he does
F worried
A think about it a lot, flip coins (to turn to the supernatural), look concerned, ask questions about ex girlfriend, be controlling, test him out, hug him, do say I love you back, not being present, don’t believe him
R I wonder if I love myself (?) or I wonder if I love him (?)