Drinking in the C line

I always give up drinking in January. It’s our ‘no drink January’. This time I want it to be diffferent in that I don’t return to drinking as I had been before.
I’ve been doing lots of models over the past few months to understand my thinking and help curb desire, and I put drinking in the C line. I just realized that Drinking does not feel neutral to me at all, so my models are compensating for a non neutral circumstance which makes the whole topic feel so weighted and emotional. Just that word brings up both shame and excitement at the same time. Do you have any ideas of possible C lines that would let me see the whole topic as neutral which gives me way more power over it? Thank you!