Drinking too much and too often

I don’t know how to shift the feeling of helplessness around stopping drinking. It truly feels as though I have no control. I know that must be a thought, but I’m only aware of a feeling. It feels as though I am unaware of what is happening when I drink. I watched some of the vault videos, but I’m not even identifying an urge. I just start drinking. Logically I know that this is driven by thought, but how do I create enough consciousness to be able to cut back or stop?