Eating Alone?

I have noticed I have strong urges and a preference to eat alone because I interpret it as giving me the feeling of relief and not being judged for how much I eat. I don’t want to be the kind of person who feels the need to eat alone, but I also enjoy it and don’t want to have that as something I enjoy.

Also, I think I do it because I feel that my eating habits are abnormal…

I like to eat a big dinner and mostly fast during the day (it works with my schedule), but myself and others have judged me for that.

For example, my mom has said things like “Once she starts eating, there’s something in her brain that makes it hard to stop.”

What should I do to work through this??