Just had several light bulb moments about why I overeat and feel a need to be disciplined.
It’s my emotional child still looking for love, attention and validation from my parents! I was sent away to boarding school 10,000 miles away from home, on the other side of the world, when I was 12 years old.
I am 41 now, and very together in every other way (at least according to me!) except around eating/ food. I use it to nourish me emotionally (I am still 10,000 miles away from my parents). I also use as a measure of self discipline, control, success… You name it.
Now that I know this, what to do from here?
How can I nourish the child gently and consistently?
I know that it begins and ends with our thoughts. Is it possible that sometimes we just literally need something physical that will nourish us? Like an actual MOM? Although, my mother is not the one to provide me what I need, at least emotionally.
How do I re-wire my brain so that the emotional adult takes over more often than not?