Engagement ring cock-up


I have been feeling very positive and optimistic since I started in SCS, but just yesterday I started to be in a really bad mood, I remembered the day my husband and I went to buy my engagement ring. We spend ages at the shop, and finally narrowed down to 2 rings, but I also liked a third one which was more expensive, bigger diamond than mine but marginally yellower colour. The salesman finally said I could choose from any of the 3 rings for the same price. I didn’t choose the biggest one because the one I chose had a marginally better colour but it was so marginal I couldn’t actually see that well. This is years ago and I still get crossed with myself about this. What an idiot I think! I should have chosen the bigger ring. It wasn’t even easy to see the difference in colour. I have been trying to apply the work we did last month on how to change your past, but I am actually finding it very very difficult to come up with a story that I feel happy with or at least comfortable with. I am even thinking to get an upgrade, which is crazy considering I have a great ring and so many other financial priorities. I know this sounds so superficial, however, I have been thinking why I made that choice and have concluded that deep down I think I don’t deserve the best things in life. Any advice on this? Thank you!