Every Weekend

I’ve been doing the drink plan for a two months. I map out my drinks for the weekend and I always drink one or two more, and then every once in awhile I binge drink. I don’t drink during the week. Then I fill out the worksheet pages Write it Down and Learn From It. I write the basically same thing. I want to be considered “fun”. Or I am trying to escape the FOMO feeling. I write that I learned that I can be fun without over drinking. Then I write that I will stick to my drink plan the next time. And I don’t. I’m feeling frustrated with myself.

Is this normal? I feel like I doing something wrong. When will I just stick to my drink plan? I feel like I should just get it right the first time, or at least after the 10th time. Any suggestions?