I decided to do a 2 day fast because even though I’ve been doing the best I can with my protocol, I still have yet to figure out why I overeat to numbness. Trying to learn what my “remains” are still unclear to me.
Today was DAY 1 of my fast.
It was difficult but I managed. I went to the grocery store (that was the hardest) and then I went and stayed home the rest of the day.
Even though this was day 1, I managed to learn a couple things about myself so I’m thrilled with that. I learned that:
•my husband really irritates me to my core and I never deal with it. I just let it build. (Hmm….Perhaps I was eating those feelings away rather than dealing with them?)
•my mom irritated me on the phone when I was talking to her. She made her usual comments trying to put me “in my place” and I could feel myself getting super heated. Usually this does irritate me and involves thought work, but THIS TIME it’s as though my anger was intensified by X50.
•I kept trying to distract myself while at home and I tried sooooo hard not to. I couldn’t bare the thought of just sitting and reflecting on my life. This was a huge indicator that I reeeeally don’t enjoy my own company. So that’s good enlightenment right?
Anyway, this is what I have discovered so far. I’m a very irritated person, and I don’t like my own company. LOL😂
I would say this was a successful day 1, wouldn’t you?
I’m desperate to figure this out.
Tomorrow may kill me, but I’m doing it. I’m all in!