Fat for Christmas

Every year I make a goal to lose weight in time for the holidays. The holidays come around and I haven’t lost anything due to lack of effort on my part. Now I think thoughts that I just want the holidays to be over so I don’t have to be out and about and see a lot of people. I want to enjoy the holidays and time with friends and family regardless of my weight. Can you help?

C holidays and did not lose weight
T I’m huge and don’t want to engage
F embarrassed
A dread events and get togethers, think bad thoughts about myself, try to get out of going, don’t enjoy myself at events, lay on couch and try to avoid life
R I don’t enjoy the holidays

How could I start flipping this?