The work you had us do on fear this week was very powerful for me. If you had asked me if fear played a roll in the way I live my life, I would have said there was no way. But after the work, I realized how much fear plays a role in my current behaviors. I have been struggling to figure out why I hit a plateau in how much money I earn and how much weight I can lose, but now I think I understand it’s fear that is holding me in the position I am in right now.
During the work, I started to remember very terrifying experiences that I had growing up. I remember the fear I felt during a haunted house, where I curled up on the floor and started crying until they took me out the back door. I never went in one again. I remember being afraid of roller coasters and waiting at the bottom for my friends and having strangers mock me. My stepfather and my sister would actually plot ways to scare me because they thought my fear was funny and entertaining. I stopped using the shower for months because of several of their games where they would tell me things like there was a butcher on the loose who only killed little blonde girls while they were in the shower.
My question is, now that I have this deep understanding of where all of my behavior around fear stemmed from, how do I go about correcting it.