Feedback on a Model regarding planning


Could you please give me your feedback on the below two Models (same circumstance) and help me see how to use it concretely to enhance myself.

C: I haven’t sent the assignment at 9:30 as I’ve planned.
T: Things always take more time than what I initially plan.
F: Powerless
A: I plan without conviction. I regularly and easily let go of my schedule. I ruminate. I don’t work effectively on enhancing my capacity to estimate tasks “right” duration. I let the circumstances, my desire of the moment, and my tasks progress without deciding how to use my time.
R: I don’t stick to my plan. I lose my integrity.

C: I haven’t sent the assignment at 9:30 as I’ve planned.
T: I’m slow.
F: Mediocre
A: I ruminate “I’m not good enough”. I eat to punish myself for my mediocrity. Don’t take the time to analyze why it took me more time to be able to better act next time (either adjust the timing or optimize my methodology)
R: I’m not able to stick to my plan which continues to make me lose my integrity and self-esteem.