Feeling Fat

What I am currently experiencing is that I “feel fat”. I understand that fat is not a feeling.

What I am actually feeling is a sense of disgust and panic about my body.

What I can’t really discern is if this feeling is triggered because my body actually feels different physically, or if I’m creating this feeling in my mind.

What I *do* know for sure is that “feeling fat” is a circumstance that triggers me SO much.

I don’t even know what to do with this, I’m just sitting here hating my body and myself. It feels like the trigger is the physical feeling of bloated stomach, puffy face, jiggly arms. I hate this 🙁

As a result of all of this, I pick myself totally apart. I want to go stare at myself in the mirror and try to figure out how to fix myself now. I know this is a mess of thoughts, but I can’t seem to put them into a model right now, I just feel so awful about myself.

Can somebody help?