Feeling feelings

I’ve been learning how to feel my feelings, and I feel terrible. I’m tired of this. Some days I feel heavier after my coaching calls, and the heavy feeling sits with me for days and doesn’t go away. I do all the skills and allow it, but it doesn’t go away and instead I’m left feeling miserable. My IBS has had a flare up now because of all these feelings that I’m allowing in, and now I’m just no longer finding this whole feeling thing to be productive. I want to be positive, I want to feel good again. When I first started LCS, I would feel amazing after the coaching calls. Now after I feel like they trigger emotions in me that make me feel heavy and sad. This goes in for a few days after. I want to focus on positivity in my life. I have turned in the lights and seen what is happening, but now I want to feel better.