Feeling H8r

This lesson came at the perfect time. I listened to the lesson, and did exactly what I shouldn’t have. Felt bad for myself, and then let the bad feelings take over. It wasn’t a time that served me. But I realized it.

Here’s my question: In my relationships, I want to find someone who I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I feel like that with my boyfriend. I’m loving him so hard. But it sucks when I feel like I’m the only one loving hard. I know I make my own happiness and fulfill my own needs. I am happy. But I don’t know what to say to him. I don’t want to change him and tell him what to do. It’s my own feelings, but at the same time I want this for life. I don’t want to feel like I’m settling for someone who doesn’t love me hard, especially at this early stage. I don’t know what to do.