This morning I am very disappointed in myself. I have been working really hard to try to take a few pounds off and yesterday I walked, did all of the things, and really have been for months. Nothing is working. Today I wanted to let myself scream out in frustration, but I am so numb. Its like my nervous system is shutting down. I can’t assess anything and this too is making me feel like a failure. I want to scream inside, but I am feel cold.

Is there a way to tap into this to have some sort of break through?

I am less concerned that I can’t lose weight, but more concerned I know how “mad” I am at myself for failing and I feel blocked from that—more then the weight loss I want to be able to access my feelings and I feel like they are “off line.”