My hubby and I have decided to invest in a home in Florida. We’ve been sitting on this money in the bank for sometime now and not doing anything with it, so we felt that investing in real estate in Florida made sense to us so we could enjoy the home in the winter months when it is cold in our main home in NY. Now we are in contract and I’m starting to feel scared around the decision. I did a thought download and created an unintentional model around the thought:

C – We are buying a vacation home

T – This decision will bankrupt us

F – Scared, Anxious, Scared around our $$, Money Scarcity Feelings

A – Focused on bank account # going down and what I can do to scrimp and save, NOT Focused on earning

R – I am not focused on Earning and I am making less

Intentional Model:

C – We are buying a Vacation Home

T – I am investing our money in something that we can create memories in. I am buying this place to share with loved ones. I am buying this place to represent my success and to feel significant

A – I am more focused on continuing to make $$

But when I was writing out the thoughts I wanted to think to create the emotion and actions, these thoughts; I am buying this place to represent my success and to feel significant – made me feel bad.

So this is the first time I’ve been able to articulate that I was even having these thoughts too and I am not sure they are serving me, but they feel true. So modeling those thoughts

C – We are buying a vacation home

T – I am buying this place to represent my success and to feel significant

F – Ashamed I need to fluff my feathers, that I need to find significance in this way, anxious in my stomach, fear I made a bad choice

A – Start questioning the decision to make this purchase

R – Not feeling confident this was the right decision

So … trying to intentional model this, Am I throwing away this thought of I am buying this place to represent my success and to feel significant, or trying to find a new meaning to it? There is a sense of confidence that it represents but I do feel some shame about it at the same time.

HELP! ;_)