figuring my brain out


Hi there. I think part of the reason why I stay locked in the past, and I have a hard time letting go and moving on is “If I don’t understand why I acted this way I will do it again”. So I need to get information out of this. There is some important information here that I risk be losing if I move on. If I move on I will forget this and do it again.

C: I stay in bed 2 h longer than expected
T: like above
F: resistant (to move on)
A: stay in bed longer thinking why and judging myself
R: do less of what I want

Similarly

C: Dedicated more time to exercise than on the agenda
T: like above
F: resistant (to move on)
A: make models on why I buffer with exercise, my relationship with my body, me not being courageous enough to accept me, etc
R: do less of what I want

I would say that when I try to understand why it’s recommended curiosity and compassion, but going into judgment is very easy. It is a slippery slope, so the more time I dedicate to understanding, solving, trying to figure out, the more I make the problem bigger by slipping into judgment. Of course, redirecting to curiosity is always possible, but also takes energy.

I’d be grateful to hear your thoughts around this. Thanks a lot.