Thank you SO much for responding. You hit it right on the nose…. I actually want to be mad!!!! I’ve expressed this feeling to my husband before and I can’t figure out exactly why. I believe that because I was raised in a very very dysfunctional household, (parents divorced, Dad an alcoholic, parents always fighting, a very very negative mom) that I’ve been labeled the “one that gets angry” from my siblings. It has become so comfortable. I joined self coaching about 3 weeks ago for overdrinking… (geez I wonder why I’m drinking so much which has slowly been working minus a few bumps) but I’m hoping I can eventually undo this subconscious desire to want to be angry! How do I not want to be angry? Thanks so much for your lengthy explanation.