Frustrated As I’ve Not Earned A Single Pebble

I’ve started an urge jar since 3 days and I’ve not earned any yet . Every meal I sneak in something out of protocol . I wonder if I’m not planning my next meal properly . If I want to eat something I eat it right away instead of planning it for next meal. I feel The day is lost as I already broke the protocol for one meal. Also it’s easier at work as I pack my meal and I stick to the protocol. UIM
C protocol
T every meal I wanna eat out of plan as I don’t need to lose weight anymore
F shame
A will break the protocol
R not master the metaskill

C protocol
T I want to be a coach one day and getting the metaskill is more important than eating out of protocol
F ??
A eat as per protocol
R master the metaskill