Frustrated with my thought about weight loss.

Help! I am feeling so down, I am 5 foot 5 inches and weight 162.6 lb and I have these tummy rolls over my belly button! help! It’s so uncomfortable and gross looking. I signed up for the self coaching scholars to focus on weight loss. My goal weight is 125lb. Thats 40lb. that is a lot of weight to lose. Here is the problem-every time I would try to lose weight I just gained more weight back. I am very frustrated about. I am trying to go easy on myself. Telling myself its a process and I need to give it time until I learn the new skills. However I am up to class 12 in Brooke’s Stop Overeating class and I am stuck, I can’t give up sugar and flour, I don’t want to fast or experiment with my hunger. I don’t want to try lowering my insulin levels, I don’t want to do any of the work because I don’t think it will work. I don’t want to eat until satiation level 2 because then I would get to eat so little. I so enjoy food prep and cooking, if I eat so little what the point of the work involved cooking. What would you recommend I do as my first step to achieving my goal? Help!