Getting over anger from actions in the past.

How do I get over being mad about caring more about other people’s opinions over the direction for my life. I only ever wanted to be a mom but I kept moving toward a career not knowing when or if kids would happen. I got married right before grad school and got pregnant during grad school. I feel like I would be happier now if I just quit school and enjoyed having babies. I am mad at other people for making me career focused and I’m mad at myself for not just saying F off! Now I feel stuck with high student loan debt and people’s expectations of me using my degree. I know a lot these are thoughts but I don’t know how to move on and accept the past and not feel obligated to do something I don’t want to do. I can’t even tell what I want to do right now. I don’t know if it’s fear or avoidance of the hard stuff of building a business that is making me just want to stay home with my kids or actually wanting to stay home with my kids. I think we would have to move in order for me to stop working. And building a business, even though I have more control, is so hard.