Giving into food urges

Hi, I have been working on allowing urges for months at social events. I journal, visualize, I set a phone timer to check in with myself during the social event , but in the moment I pick the food over losing weight & over eat. I feel like I’m hitting my head against the wall as I keep this pattern going. Food is more important to me in the moment then losing my last 10-15 pounds. I’m starting to question should I be happy with where I am because I’m not making progress going forward. I know exactly what is getting in my way which is my thoughts but I just can’t get myself to move past where I am stuck.